1) the cinnamon buns from Elder Day's Mom
2) the love the Elders show for the temple
3) the letter I got from Rachel
4) Brother Jensen teaching twice today
5) Sister Bird listening to me!
15 min running; 35 push-ups
My entire existence as a missionary has been due to the influence of the Holy Ghost. My head often figures things out for itself without consulting the guidance of the Holy Ghost, and then it is a struggle of pride, when I do seek acceptance of my plans and receive rejection instead. Somehow, I am generally able to subdue my pride and follow the promptings that I can't deny.
If I had not followed the promptings of the Holy Ghost, I would have entered the MTC without the preparation I needed by attending BYU for a semester. I'm grateful Heavenly Father did not lose patience with me because of my constant pleading. I'm also grateful I got to come on a mission anyways -- I just had to be patient. And then FINALLY the promptings came that it was OK -- that I could indeed serve a full-time mission. How wonderful! And now that I'm here, I feel very much how important that time of waiting was, to ensure that I truly wanted to be here and to help me be better prepared.
I feel so blessed to be here and it is quite a struggle to watch others who take it for granted. None of our Elders are working up to their potential and it just gives me cause to wonder if they have a realization of the importance of these things. We are dealing with people's eternal salvation! On the other hand, I am painfully aware of the fact that you can't change people -- they have to choose to change of their own accord. My brothers taught me that and I"m re-living it with my Elders. I love them and I love this work! Cectpa Bepi
Sunday, March 28, 2010
May 30, '97
NOTE: in this entry, I wrote the five things I'm grateful for in Russian. Again, I won't bother with transcribing but just go ahead and type the translation.
1) Today was P-day
2) I thought in Russian... a little, but STILL...
3) My Elders have the desire to learn the language
4) I received another letter from Elder Stone
5) I can understand more Russian. It's a pretty language
35 push-ups. That's all. BAD.
Well, little journal, I got a lot done today... wrote 4 letters, did my laundry, and received an answer to prayer. It's the same prayer I had last night and the night before and the Lord is telling me over and over again that he is providing the means by which we can and will learn this language.
We all need to put our effort into it! It's great that we have faith, but to quote James -- faith without works is DEAD!
I love the scriptures, love the Gospel. I love the Lord and I want to serve him. And I want the Elders to serve him too. With love, Cectpa Bepi
1) Today was P-day
2) I thought in Russian... a little, but STILL...
3) My Elders have the desire to learn the language
4) I received another letter from Elder Stone
5) I can understand more Russian. It's a pretty language
35 push-ups. That's all. BAD.
Well, little journal, I got a lot done today... wrote 4 letters, did my laundry, and received an answer to prayer. It's the same prayer I had last night and the night before and the Lord is telling me over and over again that he is providing the means by which we can and will learn this language.
We all need to put our effort into it! It's great that we have faith, but to quote James -- faith without works is DEAD!
I love the scriptures, love the Gospel. I love the Lord and I want to serve him. And I want the Elders to serve him too. With love, Cectpa Bepi
May 29, '97
1) the REALITY of the GIFT of TONGUES -- particularly as it applies to missionaries
2) getting a letter from "Dawnello" -- it's always good to keep in touch with old friends
3) the new journal I bought
4) having a knowledge that all is well at home
5) receiving yet another uplifting letter from Elder Stone
30 min of Callanetics; 50 push-ups; (couldn't run due to ankle problems)
We again spoke all in Russian in class tonight -- it was wonderful (see insert).
INSERT (small notebook page taped into the journal): I am having the most awesome experience! I am feeling the Spirit as we discuss the atonement in Russian. Oh, how sweet! Truly the Spirit is not bounded by language, but always he testifies of truth and what an awesome truth this is: {iskupleniye} atonement! {Ya xochy podelitsa etim principom i vsyo yevangyeliye c russkim lyudyea} I want to share this principle and all of the gospel with the Russian people. I am so grateful to be my Savior's messenger of such a {prekrasniy} message! {Eto kruto!} It's cool!
(End of insert)
We were also invited to write our feelings about the atonement in our {dnevnik) journal.
I have but a small idea of what the atonement really is... yet the more I learn, the more I treasure the knowledge of the reality of it. Christ, my brother and God's son, gave his life for me! He suffered beyond what I can imagine and through that, I can be forgiven of my sins, live with my Father, and become like him. How grateful I am for this! In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. Cectpa Bepi
2) getting a letter from "Dawnello" -- it's always good to keep in touch with old friends
3) the new journal I bought
4) having a knowledge that all is well at home
5) receiving yet another uplifting letter from Elder Stone
30 min of Callanetics; 50 push-ups; (couldn't run due to ankle problems)
We again spoke all in Russian in class tonight -- it was wonderful (see insert).
INSERT (small notebook page taped into the journal): I am having the most awesome experience! I am feeling the Spirit as we discuss the atonement in Russian. Oh, how sweet! Truly the Spirit is not bounded by language, but always he testifies of truth and what an awesome truth this is: {iskupleniye} atonement! {Ya xochy podelitsa etim principom i vsyo yevangyeliye c russkim lyudyea} I want to share this principle and all of the gospel with the Russian people. I am so grateful to be my Savior's messenger of such a {prekrasniy} message! {Eto kruto!} It's cool!
(End of insert)
We were also invited to write our feelings about the atonement in our {dnevnik) journal.
I have but a small idea of what the atonement really is... yet the more I learn, the more I treasure the knowledge of the reality of it. Christ, my brother and God's son, gave his life for me! He suffered beyond what I can imagine and through that, I can be forgiven of my sins, live with my Father, and become like him. How grateful I am for this! In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. Cectpa Bepi
May 28, '97
1) seeing Sis. Henderson
2) that we spoke all in Russian in evening class
3) that I have the opportunity to improve so much!
4) that I didn't get any mail... keeps me humble!
5) that tomorrow I'll probably get a letter from Elder Stone...
6) that we ordered Russian nametags!
walking -- 20 min; 35 push-ups
Whoa, what a day. How grateful I am to my Father in Heaven for prayers heard and answered. Today, I really needed to hear more Russian and hear my district do more with it. I love this language! And I have every desire to learn more, speak it well, and teach the gospel in it. But unlike the Elders, for me it starts here.
They seem to think they'll get to Russia and all of a sudden have the gift of tongues and be successful. Well, this evening our teacher chose to do the class in ALL Russian, and I believed it was an answer to my prayer and an eye-opener to the Elders.
Now I pray that they will act and learn so they can fulfill their calls as servants of the Lord! In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. Cectpa Bepi
2) that we spoke all in Russian in evening class
3) that I have the opportunity to improve so much!
4) that I didn't get any mail... keeps me humble!
5) that tomorrow I'll probably get a letter from Elder Stone...
6) that we ordered Russian nametags!
walking -- 20 min; 35 push-ups
Whoa, what a day. How grateful I am to my Father in Heaven for prayers heard and answered. Today, I really needed to hear more Russian and hear my district do more with it. I love this language! And I have every desire to learn more, speak it well, and teach the gospel in it. But unlike the Elders, for me it starts here.
They seem to think they'll get to Russia and all of a sudden have the gift of tongues and be successful. Well, this evening our teacher chose to do the class in ALL Russian, and I believed it was an answer to my prayer and an eye-opener to the Elders.
Now I pray that they will act and learn so they can fulfill their calls as servants of the Lord! In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. Cectpa Bepi
May 27, '97
1) a renewed spiritual "visionary" feeling (sounds funny but it's real)
2) the friendship I felt from others
3) a more complete understanding of Russian grammar
4) meeting Brother Packer -- he's cool!
5) this little extra time we had tonight
Run: 25 min; 35 push-ups
Aaaah, another day past... they seem quite a bit the same as we go on! I'll bet anything the time to leave for Russia will be here in the twinkling of an eye!
While each individual day can seem long, as I look back, I'm amazed that tomorrow marks three weeks of "survival..."
Really, though, I'm grateful for the time to prepare here in these wonderful facilities amidst these amazing servants of the Lord. That there are so many dedicated is a thrill for me to behold!
(I try not to focus on the few who are here for the wrong reasons.)
We had Tues Nite Devotional, and I just smiled as the room full of missionaries sang "Called to Serve!" Love, Cectpa Bepi
2) the friendship I felt from others
3) a more complete understanding of Russian grammar
4) meeting Brother Packer -- he's cool!
5) this little extra time we had tonight
Run: 25 min; 35 push-ups
Aaaah, another day past... they seem quite a bit the same as we go on! I'll bet anything the time to leave for Russia will be here in the twinkling of an eye!
While each individual day can seem long, as I look back, I'm amazed that tomorrow marks three weeks of "survival..."
Really, though, I'm grateful for the time to prepare here in these wonderful facilities amidst these amazing servants of the Lord. That there are so many dedicated is a thrill for me to behold!
(I try not to focus on the few who are here for the wrong reasons.)
We had Tues Nite Devotional, and I just smiled as the room full of missionaries sang "Called to Serve!" Love, Cectpa Bepi
May 26, '97
1) the bright sun and cool breeze
2) the practice we get at the TRC, asking questions
3) the Spirit of love and friendship at the MTC
4) the goals I can look forward to after my mission
5) the reality that I am here!!! A missionary!!!
run - 20 minutes at the most; 35 push-ups
I think it will be so fun to go back and read those "attempts" at journal entries in Russian!
Ya know, I'm excited to be learning a language and seeing a whole different part of the world, and yet I totally know that those aren't reasons enough to be a missionary.
I am here at the MTC to prepare more fully to teach the gospel, granted, in another tongue... but that's just a means to an end: the great end of eternal life with my brothers and sisters. I pray that I can pursue this goal worthily and with full purpose of heart. I know it's not an easy thing and hence my motives have to be right or else they won't last...
I'm so grateful for the gospel -- I want to share it with everyone! Cectpa Bepi
2) the practice we get at the TRC, asking questions
3) the Spirit of love and friendship at the MTC
4) the goals I can look forward to after my mission
5) the reality that I am here!!! A missionary!!!
run - 20 minutes at the most; 35 push-ups
I think it will be so fun to go back and read those "attempts" at journal entries in Russian!
Ya know, I'm excited to be learning a language and seeing a whole different part of the world, and yet I totally know that those aren't reasons enough to be a missionary.
I am here at the MTC to prepare more fully to teach the gospel, granted, in another tongue... but that's just a means to an end: the great end of eternal life with my brothers and sisters. I pray that I can pursue this goal worthily and with full purpose of heart. I know it's not an easy thing and hence my motives have to be right or else they won't last...
I'm so grateful for the gospel -- I want to share it with everyone! Cectpa Bepi
May 25, '97
NOTE: this was originally written entirely in Russian. I will forgo the whole transcribing thing and just translate!
1) my companion
2) Sunday! slow... very peaceful
3) The Holy Ghost telling me that I'm doing the right thing
4) familiar faces
5) I overeat! Always!
no running... 35 push-ups
Hello! Today, I am excited to write this entry because my companion and I spoke in Russian all day! She didn't like it much, but I loved it! I know that I have a lot to learn, and I think that I only learn when I practice. My companion doesn't have a big vocabulary. That's okay -- I will help her if I can.
I am also excited because I read the Book of Mormon (in Russian and in English). Brother Benson gave me the list of verses that I will memorize, and try to use. I want to know all the scriptures better and understand them. I know that they are true!
I love missionary work! In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. Cectpa Bepi
1) my companion
2) Sunday! slow... very peaceful
3) The Holy Ghost telling me that I'm doing the right thing
4) familiar faces
5) I overeat! Always!
no running... 35 push-ups
Hello! Today, I am excited to write this entry because my companion and I spoke in Russian all day! She didn't like it much, but I loved it! I know that I have a lot to learn, and I think that I only learn when I practice. My companion doesn't have a big vocabulary. That's okay -- I will help her if I can.
I am also excited because I read the Book of Mormon (in Russian and in English). Brother Benson gave me the list of verses that I will memorize, and try to use. I want to know all the scriptures better and understand them. I know that they are true!
I love missionary work! In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. Cectpa Bepi
May 24, '97
1) my talents, even if they're only recognized by me...
2) my letter from Allison (it has to last me until Tuesday 'cuz Monday's a holiday)
3) each of my teachers here at the MTC
4) that my skirt can be unbuttoned (without falling off) to allow for this extra weight
5) that my understanding of the atonement can be heightened little by little
25 min running (stairs included); 75 back-friendly tummy crunches; 30 push-ups
Today was a weird day. My district really started bugging me. Why won't they work their butts off and learn this language? I actually sense their hatred for it and I know (from experience with my brothers) that you can't change someone else's attitude. So I'm flustered. Don't they realize what we're doing? My gosh. Okay, well, since there is not a lot I can do about it -- but is that true? Can't I at least influence them? AACK! This stinking free agency. Hmph. Well, I'll pray for them too. Love, Cectpa Bepi
2) my letter from Allison (it has to last me until Tuesday 'cuz Monday's a holiday)
3) each of my teachers here at the MTC
4) that my skirt can be unbuttoned (without falling off) to allow for this extra weight
5) that my understanding of the atonement can be heightened little by little
25 min running (stairs included); 75 back-friendly tummy crunches; 30 push-ups
Today was a weird day. My district really started bugging me. Why won't they work their butts off and learn this language? I actually sense their hatred for it and I know (from experience with my brothers) that you can't change someone else's attitude. So I'm flustered. Don't they realize what we're doing? My gosh. Okay, well, since there is not a lot I can do about it -- but is that true? Can't I at least influence them? AACK! This stinking free agency. Hmph. Well, I'll pray for them too. Love, Cectpa Bepi
May 23, '97
1) the SHORT nap I got (I'm grateful it was short -- I don't like to waste too much time!)
2) all the letters I got to write
3) the friendship of my room-mates
4) the opportunity to increase my testimony about Joseph Smith
5) just barely getting in dinner but getting enough to eat
15 min walking; 200 back-friendly tummy crunches; 30 push-ups
Well, yet another day done at the MTC. I got all my letters written that I needed to... but not as much studying as I would have liked.
I actually find myself in love with the Russian language. I'm feeling so much better -- completely opposite from my initial reaction of fear -- I'm experiencing gift of tongues in a few different manners, including that of comfort and confidence and love for the language, which means a desire to speak it more, to hear it more.
I pray this continues to grow over the next six weeks and I'll be ready!
2) all the letters I got to write
3) the friendship of my room-mates
4) the opportunity to increase my testimony about Joseph Smith
5) just barely getting in dinner but getting enough to eat
15 min walking; 200 back-friendly tummy crunches; 30 push-ups
Well, yet another day done at the MTC. I got all my letters written that I needed to... but not as much studying as I would have liked.
I actually find myself in love with the Russian language. I'm feeling so much better -- completely opposite from my initial reaction of fear -- I'm experiencing gift of tongues in a few different manners, including that of comfort and confidence and love for the language, which means a desire to speak it more, to hear it more.
I pray this continues to grow over the next six weeks and I'll be ready!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
May 22, '97
1) the opportunity to be delving into something so focused-like
2) my companion's laugh
3) the uplifting stories told today at LGM
4) the increasing unity of our district
5) the "sense" I am making of grammar!
run- 15 min; 80 sit-ups; 30 push-ups
Today went much faster than yesterday. Quite honestly, I think all of our time here will go much faster than we think and we will be out on the field in no time. How exciting!
Monday night we did that TRC (I dunno what the initials stand for) but pretty much people are staged as investigators and we get to teach them. My companion and I did it in English and the first time I don't think she was totally comfortable but the second time she caught on fire!
The Spirit is there when you need it, when you see it, and when you trust in it.
Tonight, our {staryeishini} Elders really impressed me. They led the discussions about gospel study. Our district leader, Elder Day, hadn't (in my opinion) been doing his complete duties, as far as keeping things under control and particularly in the area of setting a good example. But tonight, he was able to lead the discussion in such a way that the Spirit was indeed there and that several of the {staryeishini} Elders were impressed to bear their testimonies. And, in answer to my personal prayers, the testimony of Elder Miller was just what I needed to hear. Apparently he has been touched by the Spirit in the way that he needs to be to be motivated to dig in and learn this language so he can teach effectively.
It's wonderful for me to witness the hand of the Lord in others' lives!
I know these next 18 months will be full of such opportunities -- how grateful I am for that!
{Vo imya Iicyca Xpista, Amin} In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen
Cectpa Bepi
2) my companion's laugh
3) the uplifting stories told today at LGM
4) the increasing unity of our district
5) the "sense" I am making of grammar!
run- 15 min; 80 sit-ups; 30 push-ups
Today went much faster than yesterday. Quite honestly, I think all of our time here will go much faster than we think and we will be out on the field in no time. How exciting!
Monday night we did that TRC (I dunno what the initials stand for) but pretty much people are staged as investigators and we get to teach them. My companion and I did it in English and the first time I don't think she was totally comfortable but the second time she caught on fire!
The Spirit is there when you need it, when you see it, and when you trust in it.
Tonight, our {staryeishini} Elders really impressed me. They led the discussions about gospel study. Our district leader, Elder Day, hadn't (in my opinion) been doing his complete duties, as far as keeping things under control and particularly in the area of setting a good example. But tonight, he was able to lead the discussion in such a way that the Spirit was indeed there and that several of the {staryeishini} Elders were impressed to bear their testimonies. And, in answer to my personal prayers, the testimony of Elder Miller was just what I needed to hear. Apparently he has been touched by the Spirit in the way that he needs to be to be motivated to dig in and learn this language so he can teach effectively.
It's wonderful for me to witness the hand of the Lord in others' lives!
I know these next 18 months will be full of such opportunities -- how grateful I am for that!
{Vo imya Iicyca Xpista, Amin} In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen
Cectpa Bepi
May 21, '97
1) that this day has finally ended!
2) I got to take a nap outdoors
3) the pillow I sat on in class
4) the improvements my {staryeishini} elders are showing
5) Bro. Benson's kind comments when I see him as I run in the mornings
run - 30 min - 30 push-ips - 80 sit-ups - 90 butt-ups
*butt-ups are 0_/\ ---> 0/-\ (good illustration?!)
I really have a pride problem. It's a terrible thing. No wonder Pres. Ezra Taft Benson gave the great talk on pride. It keeps me from progressing, it keeps those around me from progression as effectively as they could. Seek first to cast the BEAM out of your own eye, cectpa!
I do know that I love the scriptures and it is a joy to me to be able to know the scriptures. But it has to be shared in the right spirit, with the appropriate purpose and selfless goal of teaching others AND learning from them to begin with.
This was an extremely long day (for some reason... dunno) Cectpa Bepi
2) I got to take a nap outdoors
3) the pillow I sat on in class
4) the improvements my {staryeishini} elders are showing
5) Bro. Benson's kind comments when I see him as I run in the mornings
run - 30 min - 30 push-ips - 80 sit-ups - 90 butt-ups
*butt-ups are 0_/\ ---> 0/-\ (good illustration?!)
I really have a pride problem. It's a terrible thing. No wonder Pres. Ezra Taft Benson gave the great talk on pride. It keeps me from progressing, it keeps those around me from progression as effectively as they could. Seek first to cast the BEAM out of your own eye, cectpa!
I do know that I love the scriptures and it is a joy to me to be able to know the scriptures. But it has to be shared in the right spirit, with the appropriate purpose and selfless goal of teaching others AND learning from them to begin with.
This was an extremely long day (for some reason... dunno) Cectpa Bepi
May 20, '97
1) Elder Wirthlin's words of wisdom specific to missionaries
2) the power of prayer
3) Spiritual choreography -- running into people I know at the right time
4) being the recipient of packages!
5) the new hymn "Faith in Every Footstep"
6)! my energy provided to me
200 sit-ups; run- 25min; 30 push-ups
I like progression! I'm grateful for this eternal principle wherein we take simple steps, one by one, and eventually reach our potential! I know the Lord works this way in every element of our lives.
As long as we strive to keep upward mobility and balance between the different areas, then we have Him on our side. I'm grateful for this principle and pray I can live it, putting my effort in and hence earning the help, the boost, of the Savior.
I'm grateful for my growing testimony (particularly in Russian!) in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. Regan Cectpa Bepi
2) the power of prayer
3) Spiritual choreography -- running into people I know at the right time
4) being the recipient of packages!
5) the new hymn "Faith in Every Footstep"
6)! my energy provided to me
200 sit-ups; run- 25min; 30 push-ups
I like progression! I'm grateful for this eternal principle wherein we take simple steps, one by one, and eventually reach our potential! I know the Lord works this way in every element of our lives.
As long as we strive to keep upward mobility and balance between the different areas, then we have Him on our side. I'm grateful for this principle and pray I can live it, putting my effort in and hence earning the help, the boost, of the Savior.
I'm grateful for my growing testimony (particularly in Russian!) in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. Regan Cectpa Bepi
May 19, '97
1) Wearing less make-up and still feeling "pretty"
2) time outside in the warm sun & my companion's patience with me
3) doing the role-play (although I would have liked to try in Russian)
4) my ability to help others understand stuff
5) creativity! the spice of life!
soccer-40 min; 200 sit-ups; 30 push-ups
Little do I know what my new calling entails... the previous coordinating sisters did a "departure party" ordeal, where we entered their dorm room which was draped in curtains... it was Lehi's tree of life, and we had to wear our robes, a pillowcase & headband to fit in. It was neat!
Then we told our "how come we're on a mission" stories... it makes me reflect on the many different steps in my life that have brought me here. And here I am!
I pray I will serve honorably and righteously and life will go on after it in the footsteps of the Lord!
G'nite - Cectpa Bepi
2) time outside in the warm sun & my companion's patience with me
3) doing the role-play (although I would have liked to try in Russian)
4) my ability to help others understand stuff
5) creativity! the spice of life!
soccer-40 min; 200 sit-ups; 30 push-ups
Little do I know what my new calling entails... the previous coordinating sisters did a "departure party" ordeal, where we entered their dorm room which was draped in curtains... it was Lehi's tree of life, and we had to wear our robes, a pillowcase & headband to fit in. It was neat!
Then we told our "how come we're on a mission" stories... it makes me reflect on the many different steps in my life that have brought me here. And here I am!
I pray I will serve honorably and righteously and life will go on after it in the footsteps of the Lord!
G'nite - Cectpa Bepi
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
May 18, '97
NOTE: I tried to write today's post (other than the 5 things I'm grateful for) entirely in Russian. Obviously, I made some serious (actually, pretty hilarious) mistakes, since I had only studied the language a few weeks... Rather than bore you with an attempt to transcribe the Russian Cyrillic, I'll just put the translation!
1) the Book of Mormon
2) the serenity of the temple grounds
3) the lovely weather today
4) my new opportunity to serve as coordinating sister with my companion
5) the example of Bro. Carver as a speaker
150 Sit ups, 25 push-ups
Today, I write in Russian. I have a goal to write one entry every week in Russian. I don't know many word, and I am bad with grammar, but I will write.
I want to write my thoughts about the gospel. I know that the Church is true; that Joseph Smith was a prophet of God, and the Book of Mormon is the word of God. I want to serve my Heavenly Father. I pray for help with the Russian language.
I think that it will be funny to read this entry in eighteen months... Will I understand what I wrote?
I know that God lives, and he loves me. I will return to God and live with him for eternity. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. Sister Berry.
1) the Book of Mormon
2) the serenity of the temple grounds
3) the lovely weather today
4) my new opportunity to serve as coordinating sister with my companion
5) the example of Bro. Carver as a speaker
150 Sit ups, 25 push-ups
Today, I write in Russian. I have a goal to write one entry every week in Russian. I don't know many word, and I am bad with grammar, but I will write.
I want to write my thoughts about the gospel. I know that the Church is true; that Joseph Smith was a prophet of God, and the Book of Mormon is the word of God. I want to serve my Heavenly Father. I pray for help with the Russian language.
I think that it will be funny to read this entry in eighteen months... Will I understand what I wrote?
I know that God lives, and he loves me. I will return to God and live with him for eternity. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. Sister Berry.
May 17, '97
1) Nicole, who is going to buy me some new clothes
2) My good memory (even though it hurts when I over-use it!)
3) The teachers we have here at the MTC
4) I have a companion who cares
5) the gift of tongues
run - 20 min (4 sprints -- that's a record for me)
15 sit-ups, 25 push-ups
Now I know for myself what people talk about when they call the MTC "groundhog day." Over and over and over... study, eat, study, eat, study, eat, study, sleep, run, study, eat...
I'm sure pleased my roommates and I make "run" part of the daily schedules. Your body needs it -- the brain can't be active by itself! Mine almost gave out on me today buy I fulfilled all my goals (except the writing one entry in Russian, which I'll work on tomorrow). I have more letters to write tomorrow, too. P-day wasn't long enough! ;)
Sincerely, {Cectpa Bepi} Sister Berry
2) My good memory (even though it hurts when I over-use it!)
3) The teachers we have here at the MTC
4) I have a companion who cares
5) the gift of tongues
run - 20 min (4 sprints -- that's a record for me)
15 sit-ups, 25 push-ups
Now I know for myself what people talk about when they call the MTC "groundhog day." Over and over and over... study, eat, study, eat, study, eat, study, sleep, run, study, eat...
I'm sure pleased my roommates and I make "run" part of the daily schedules. Your body needs it -- the brain can't be active by itself! Mine almost gave out on me today buy I fulfilled all my goals (except the writing one entry in Russian, which I'll work on tomorrow). I have more letters to write tomorrow, too. P-day wasn't long enough! ;)
Sincerely, {Cectpa Bepi} Sister Berry
Sunday, March 14, 2010
May 16, '97
1) THE TEMPLE!! (I could put that for all five!)
2) The potential "my" Elders are showing
3) P-day and the letters I got to write
4) How well I am provided for as I serve
5) My knowledge of the Gospel
run- 30 minutes! 150 sit-ups, 25 push-ups
Tonight I am fulfilling a commitment to write in my journal my feelings regarding Joseph Smith.
I know that he was a man -- meaning he suffered just as I do. But more than that, I know he was a prophet and that I am indebted to him for the knowledge that blesses my life and makes it worth living.
As I learn greater and greater truths that were provided by this prophet, I am almost overwhelmed by the possibilities it introduces into my future. I am excited to learn more and share more and pray I can be guided by the Spirit as I do both!
In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
Sister Berry
2) The potential "my" Elders are showing
3) P-day and the letters I got to write
4) How well I am provided for as I serve
5) My knowledge of the Gospel
run- 30 minutes! 150 sit-ups, 25 push-ups
Tonight I am fulfilling a commitment to write in my journal my feelings regarding Joseph Smith.
I know that he was a man -- meaning he suffered just as I do. But more than that, I know he was a prophet and that I am indebted to him for the knowledge that blesses my life and makes it worth living.
As I learn greater and greater truths that were provided by this prophet, I am almost overwhelmed by the possibilities it introduces into my future. I am excited to learn more and share more and pray I can be guided by the Spirit as I do both!
In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
Sister Berry
May 15' 97
6:40am
from my scripture study: Acts 6 - Stephen has BOTH wisdom and power, and he teaches by BOTH wisdom and the Spirit.
D&C 6 - in regards to last night's journal entry, "ask and ye shall receive" has a lot more meaning for me. I did ask and I am receiving {vozmozhnost} the opportunity to serve full-time... what a calm assurance flows into my heart in realization of this!
Verse 10 - we are each GIFTED -- but stay humble (it comes from above) and use it for the right purposes.
Vs. 14 - WOW! Surely this applies to me, being here.
Vs. 19 - for companionship inventories!
11pm
1) Priesthood authority - especially when recognized for the great force it is!
2) Elder Stone's tape!! He's so awesome!
3) P-day tomorrow!! - get to go to the temple!
4) being able to explain the Plan of Salvation -- a great deal of eternal truth -- in 30 seconds
5) Seeing familiar faces now and again
20 min running, 150 sit-ups, 25 push-ups
It's {izumlyoni} amazing to me how fast the time goes when looking back on it, but how slow it can seem when trying to endure it! I haven't worn a watch the last few days and I think that helps me not count down the hours and minutes.
Don't get me wrong! I love the MTC and the things we're learning! But I find it hard to SIT ALL DAY with just breaks to eat. But if it's one of the greatest sacrifices I have to make then so be it!
Oh, it was so great to receive a tape from Elder Stone. I can definitely see how he is going to be a strength to me while I serve. He is very positive and spiritually strong and reveals an authentic desire to get stronger and be better. How awesome!
I hope the {staryashini} Elders in my district get this {zhelaniye} desire very soon... as of yet, it seems they tolerate the Spiritual side of it but can't wait to act like their teen-age selves again. SCARY!
Well, {ya ustala} I'm tired -- {ya hochy pobegat zabtra ytpo, shtobe spokoni nochi!} I want to run tomorrow morning, so good night!
{Lyuobov, Cectpa Bepi} Love, Sister Berry
from my scripture study: Acts 6 - Stephen has BOTH wisdom and power, and he teaches by BOTH wisdom and the Spirit.
D&C 6 - in regards to last night's journal entry, "ask and ye shall receive" has a lot more meaning for me. I did ask and I am receiving {vozmozhnost} the opportunity to serve full-time... what a calm assurance flows into my heart in realization of this!
Verse 10 - we are each GIFTED -- but stay humble (it comes from above) and use it for the right purposes.
Vs. 14 - WOW! Surely this applies to me, being here.
Vs. 19 - for companionship inventories!
11pm
1) Priesthood authority - especially when recognized for the great force it is!
2) Elder Stone's tape!! He's so awesome!
3) P-day tomorrow!! - get to go to the temple!
4) being able to explain the Plan of Salvation -- a great deal of eternal truth -- in 30 seconds
5) Seeing familiar faces now and again
20 min running, 150 sit-ups, 25 push-ups
It's {izumlyoni} amazing to me how fast the time goes when looking back on it, but how slow it can seem when trying to endure it! I haven't worn a watch the last few days and I think that helps me not count down the hours and minutes.
Don't get me wrong! I love the MTC and the things we're learning! But I find it hard to SIT ALL DAY with just breaks to eat. But if it's one of the greatest sacrifices I have to make then so be it!
Oh, it was so great to receive a tape from Elder Stone. I can definitely see how he is going to be a strength to me while I serve. He is very positive and spiritually strong and reveals an authentic desire to get stronger and be better. How awesome!
I hope the {staryashini} Elders in my district get this {zhelaniye} desire very soon... as of yet, it seems they tolerate the Spiritual side of it but can't wait to act like their teen-age selves again. SCARY!
Well, {ya ustala} I'm tired -- {ya hochy pobegat zabtra ytpo, shtobe spokoni nochi!} I want to run tomorrow morning, so good night!
{Lyuobov, Cectpa Bepi} Love, Sister Berry
May 14, '97
1) little "clicking" times when something makes sense
2) forgiveness and willingness to move on
3) the missionary program altogether
4) my darn good memory
5) my companion's efforts at Speaking Your Language (SYL)
run- 20 minutes -- 170 sit-ups -- 24 1/2 push-ups
Am I wavering? Because she that wavereth will not receive anything of the Lord! I want SO MUCH to serve this mission. Really, it comes down to pride: I want to say I'm a returned missionary. I'm so good at the language and totally feel blessed with the gift of tongues. I know I have SO MUCH yet to learn, and not just in the language but in the Scriptures. I really think a mission is a great way to learn both.
It truly is a sacrifice in more ways than I ever recognized it.. and that can be hard to deal with. I compare this time to my last semester and so far have not learned as much as I did then... as far as what is in the scriptures... but I know I need to take time to APPLY the scriptures.
Oh how I wish I could pray! With my companion and room-mates around all the time, I just can't put the energy and effort into it that I am used to.. and that I need to. I need to let my Father know my worries and concerns, I need to express to Him my great desire to serve, I need to plead for Him to bless my family while I'm gone, I want to explain how much I'll miss the temple while serving in St. Petersburg, and that I have humbled myself greatly and no longer hate the idea of being married and that I have every desire for a wonderful man to be prepared to receive me upon my homecoming.
Please let it be after 18 months of full-time, whole-hearted service! Please! I know it's a pride thing. I'll strive to re-focus myself. Oh, Father, I need thy Spirit. I need thy strength. I do know that thou livest and that thou doth care for me as well as each of the people in St. Petersburg whose life I can touch. {Spasibo Bolshoi} A big thank you!
Love, Sister Berry
2) forgiveness and willingness to move on
3) the missionary program altogether
4) my darn good memory
5) my companion's efforts at Speaking Your Language (SYL)
run- 20 minutes -- 170 sit-ups -- 24 1/2 push-ups
Am I wavering? Because she that wavereth will not receive anything of the Lord! I want SO MUCH to serve this mission. Really, it comes down to pride: I want to say I'm a returned missionary. I'm so good at the language and totally feel blessed with the gift of tongues. I know I have SO MUCH yet to learn, and not just in the language but in the Scriptures. I really think a mission is a great way to learn both.
It truly is a sacrifice in more ways than I ever recognized it.. and that can be hard to deal with. I compare this time to my last semester and so far have not learned as much as I did then... as far as what is in the scriptures... but I know I need to take time to APPLY the scriptures.
Oh how I wish I could pray! With my companion and room-mates around all the time, I just can't put the energy and effort into it that I am used to.. and that I need to. I need to let my Father know my worries and concerns, I need to express to Him my great desire to serve, I need to plead for Him to bless my family while I'm gone, I want to explain how much I'll miss the temple while serving in St. Petersburg, and that I have humbled myself greatly and no longer hate the idea of being married and that I have every desire for a wonderful man to be prepared to receive me upon my homecoming.
Please let it be after 18 months of full-time, whole-hearted service! Please! I know it's a pride thing. I'll strive to re-focus myself. Oh, Father, I need thy Spirit. I need thy strength. I do know that thou livest and that thou doth care for me as well as each of the people in St. Petersburg whose life I can touch. {Spasibo Bolshoi} A big thank you!
Love, Sister Berry
May 13, '97
1) Others' testimonies
2) Each of our individual talents and how they combine for the benefit of everyone
3) My friends and family who are writing and supporting me
4) Growth through struggle (hard to admit)
5) the example of Christ
run- 25 minutes - 140 sit-ups - 25 push-ups
Well, tomorrow marks one full week at the MTC. We sure learn a lot in a little time!
We memorized phrases that help us to bear our testimony today! It was particularly gratifying when some of the Elders, who have been struggling all along, "got" a key concept in grammar... I could tell it was a success that came at the right time! I'm excited for them.
As I am in the midst of this great work, indulging in the Spirit so strongly and regularly, I recognize the forces of Satan to be discouragement and doubt -- things we don't often attribute to him. I pray for the strength to overcome and know I will be blessed!
Love, Sister Berry
2) Each of our individual talents and how they combine for the benefit of everyone
3) My friends and family who are writing and supporting me
4) Growth through struggle (hard to admit)
5) the example of Christ
run- 25 minutes - 140 sit-ups - 25 push-ups
Well, tomorrow marks one full week at the MTC. We sure learn a lot in a little time!
We memorized phrases that help us to bear our testimony today! It was particularly gratifying when some of the Elders, who have been struggling all along, "got" a key concept in grammar... I could tell it was a success that came at the right time! I'm excited for them.
As I am in the midst of this great work, indulging in the Spirit so strongly and regularly, I recognize the forces of Satan to be discouragement and doubt -- things we don't often attribute to him. I pray for the strength to overcome and know I will be blessed!
Love, Sister Berry
May 12, '97
1) Nature - especially mountains because they make me look up and think of God and his creations
2) reality of repentance and reliance on the Savior
3) my precious companion and her patience with me and my oddities
4) the overwhelming strength of the Spirit to swell my heart and humble me
5) mail! letters! packages!!
run- 20 minutes - 130 sit-ups, 20 push-ups
Oh my, how I desired some personal quiet time today, but being a missionary at the MTC, that's something I don't get a lot of. I just wanted to spend some time on my knees, praying and pleading for the Spirit to guide me and direct me.
I have chosen to serve this full-time mission, to go where the Lord wants me to go and say what he wants me to say -- even if it's {po-ruski} in Russian.
It is overwhelming to me that I have the truth of the gospel and that I am among the few chosen to go forth and preach it to others!
How great is my calling!
Love, Sister Berry
2) reality of repentance and reliance on the Savior
3) my precious companion and her patience with me and my oddities
4) the overwhelming strength of the Spirit to swell my heart and humble me
5) mail! letters! packages!!
run- 20 minutes - 130 sit-ups, 20 push-ups
Oh my, how I desired some personal quiet time today, but being a missionary at the MTC, that's something I don't get a lot of. I just wanted to spend some time on my knees, praying and pleading for the Spirit to guide me and direct me.
I have chosen to serve this full-time mission, to go where the Lord wants me to go and say what he wants me to say -- even if it's {po-ruski} in Russian.
It is overwhelming to me that I have the truth of the gospel and that I am among the few chosen to go forth and preach it to others!
How great is my calling!
Love, Sister Berry
Saturday, March 13, 2010
May 11, '97
1) the chance to write letters
2) the talk by Sister Edmunds
3) My mother and grandmother
4) the beauty of the temple grounds
5) the chance to fast as a district
120 sit-ups, 20 push-ups
My companion is really a help meet for me. Her smile comes just when I need it; her thoughts coincide with and complement mine. No wonder the Lord puts us in pairs!
This lovely first Sabbath at the MTC was spent fasting for help with the language. We also spent quality time with the district -- a group of truly called Elders with some marvelous works and wonders ahead of them.
I wandered onto the temple grounds this morning with Sis. Smyth and we wrote letters and absorbed the Spirit. I knew Brent who was working in the security booth and he let me call and leave a Happy Mother's Day message with my grandmother for my mother.
I've realized how much I want to be a mother someday! Don't worry -- I'll be patient!
Love, Cectpa Bepi (Sister Berry)
2) the talk by Sister Edmunds
3) My mother and grandmother
4) the beauty of the temple grounds
5) the chance to fast as a district
120 sit-ups, 20 push-ups
My companion is really a help meet for me. Her smile comes just when I need it; her thoughts coincide with and complement mine. No wonder the Lord puts us in pairs!
This lovely first Sabbath at the MTC was spent fasting for help with the language. We also spent quality time with the district -- a group of truly called Elders with some marvelous works and wonders ahead of them.
I wandered onto the temple grounds this morning with Sis. Smyth and we wrote letters and absorbed the Spirit. I knew Brent who was working in the security booth and he let me call and leave a Happy Mother's Day message with my grandmother for my mother.
I've realized how much I want to be a mother someday! Don't worry -- I'll be patient!
Love, Cectpa Bepi (Sister Berry)
Thursday, March 11, 2010
May 10, '97
1) My letter from Elder Stone
2) The beautiful blue sky and sunshine today
3) The opportunity to bear my testimony
4) The friendship in the district
5) The fact tomorrow's the Sabbath!
110 sit-ups, 20 push-ups, 20 min running
Oh, my, the cafeteria food is already getting old! I never ate this well on my own, so I hope the exercise is balancing it out and I won't get too "big."
The Spirit continues to be strong here as I strive to get things in perspective.
It seems like I've been here much longer than just 3 days... we cram SO much into every minute but it still seems like "eat and study" and that's about it -- even hardly any sleep! But that's because we haven't been as diligent about obeying the "go to bed" rule as we have the "get up on time" rule.
I do indeed feel the gift of tongues and even the interpretation thereof! I'm excited to write some letters tomorrow!
Love, Sister Regan Berry
2) The beautiful blue sky and sunshine today
3) The opportunity to bear my testimony
4) The friendship in the district
5) The fact tomorrow's the Sabbath!
110 sit-ups, 20 push-ups, 20 min running
Oh, my, the cafeteria food is already getting old! I never ate this well on my own, so I hope the exercise is balancing it out and I won't get too "big."
The Spirit continues to be strong here as I strive to get things in perspective.
It seems like I've been here much longer than just 3 days... we cram SO much into every minute but it still seems like "eat and study" and that's about it -- even hardly any sleep! But that's because we haven't been as diligent about obeying the "go to bed" rule as we have the "get up on time" rule.
I do indeed feel the gift of tongues and even the interpretation thereof! I'm excited to write some letters tomorrow!
Love, Sister Regan Berry
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
May 9, '97
NOTE: In today's entry, I attempted to write in Russian a little bit. As I type in English, I am just using whatever English letters seem to correspond with the Russian, but then I put the Russian in {brackets} and italics and translate it immediately thereafter! If you happen to speak Russian, you might notice that I went ahead and left the mistakes as they were. No need to pretend that I knew more than I did!
1) My call to serve in this great work
2) Familiar faces around the MTC
3) the Spirit in
4) the breathing exercises Sister Halford does
5) Praying in Russian
20 min running, 110 sit-ups, 20 push-ups
Wow, today seemed long! My comp and I were going to try to get to bed on time tonight... it's already 10:32, so, oh well!
But I did feel lots of progression with the language today! We learned some very basic prayer phrases. I feel like I was guided to study Russian the little that I did. It just made me familiar enough with how to read it, and doing the independent studies project of taping scriptures in my bible made me feel comfortable with certain religious phrases.
I worry about the Elders in my district -- they seem a little discouraged. However, they also have a real Spirit of the truth and reality of the work. May God bless them with strength of mind!
No mail today :{ but I'll survive it. It only comes every 9 or 10 days in the mission field, so I suppose I'd best get used to it.
{Ya xochy picat pa-ruski kogda ya mogy. Takzhe goborit. Sis. Smyth tozhe xochit - spasibo. Ya blagodary Bozhe za klasni i krasibi komp!} I want to write in Russian when I can and also speak. Sister Smyth also wants to, thankfully. I thank God for a cool and beautiful companion! As you can see, I often don't quite know exactly what to say, but I know, {ya znayu, shto ya bydy mozhet vsyo goborit.} I know, that I will be able to say everything.
What an amazing Spirit abides in this work. It certainly is like a stone cut without hands! We took a little "missionary evaluation" survey this morning that asked some pretty searching questions about my testimony and faith level. I pray I answered them honestly!
I do love the Lord and His gospel and His Russian Saints. {Bo imya Iicyca Xpicta, Amin.} In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
1) My call to serve in this great work
2) Familiar faces around the MTC
3) the Spirit in
4) the breathing exercises Sister Halford does
5) Praying in Russian
20 min running, 110 sit-ups, 20 push-ups
Wow, today seemed long! My comp and I were going to try to get to bed on time tonight... it's already 10:32, so, oh well!
But I did feel lots of progression with the language today! We learned some very basic prayer phrases. I feel like I was guided to study Russian the little that I did. It just made me familiar enough with how to read it, and doing the independent studies project of taping scriptures in my bible made me feel comfortable with certain religious phrases.
I worry about the Elders in my district -- they seem a little discouraged. However, they also have a real Spirit of the truth and reality of the work. May God bless them with strength of mind!
No mail today :{ but I'll survive it. It only comes every 9 or 10 days in the mission field, so I suppose I'd best get used to it.
{Ya xochy picat pa-ruski kogda ya mogy. Takzhe goborit. Sis. Smyth tozhe xochit - spasibo. Ya blagodary Bozhe za klasni i krasibi komp!} I want to write in Russian when I can and also speak. Sister Smyth also wants to, thankfully. I thank God for a cool and beautiful companion! As you can see, I often don't quite know exactly what to say, but I know, {ya znayu, shto ya bydy mozhet vsyo goborit.} I know, that I will be able to say everything.
What an amazing Spirit abides in this work. It certainly is like a stone cut without hands! We took a little "missionary evaluation" survey this morning that asked some pretty searching questions about my testimony and faith level. I pray I answered them honestly!
I do love the Lord and His gospel and His Russian Saints. {Bo imya Iicyca Xpicta, Amin.} In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
May 8, '97
1) My patient teachers
2) My companion's honesty and ideas
3) the kindness of the missionaries here
4) the words of wisdom of priesthood holders
5) ice cream sundae!
Run - 20 min - 100 situps, 20 push ups
The first full day at the MTC - SURVIVED!! Funny -- I looked at my clock around 1:20pm and realized that only 24 hours had passed since I had entered! Yet, so much has occurred -- I've met so many people and learned so many things.
What's most memorable is the gift of tongues that I'm experiencing! Of course, I'm still at less-than-first year level, but my vocabulary is coming back, my understanding is increasing...
I also got some mail! From my awesome Mom and my friend Lindalee. I need to not be so dependent on mail, though. I need to realize that yes, life will go on without me, and I don't need to be filled in on it all! I didn't receive Elder Stone's letter. I'm hoping I didn't offend him by responding so hesitantly to his letter that practically proclaimed his love! We'll see, I guess -- I hope soon!
Love, Sister Berry
P.S. de ja vu is pretty consistent. COOL!
2) My companion's honesty and ideas
3) the kindness of the missionaries here
4) the words of wisdom of priesthood holders
5) ice cream sundae!
Run - 20 min - 100 situps, 20 push ups
The first full day at the MTC - SURVIVED!! Funny -- I looked at my clock around 1:20pm and realized that only 24 hours had passed since I had entered! Yet, so much has occurred -- I've met so many people and learned so many things.
What's most memorable is the gift of tongues that I'm experiencing! Of course, I'm still at less-than-first year level, but my vocabulary is coming back, my understanding is increasing...
I also got some mail! From my awesome Mom and my friend Lindalee. I need to not be so dependent on mail, though. I need to realize that yes, life will go on without me, and I don't need to be filled in on it all! I didn't receive Elder Stone's letter. I'm hoping I didn't offend him by responding so hesitantly to his letter that practically proclaimed his love! We'll see, I guess -- I hope soon!
Love, Sister Berry
P.S. de ja vu is pretty consistent. COOL!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
First day at the MTC! May 7, 1997
1) Safety in traveling
2) Spirit saying "This is right!"
3) Gelters' service, love, & support
4) Meagan and parents' gift of funds!
5) Sis. Smyth being so awesome!
100 sit ups, 20 push-ups
Well, the way I'm starting my entries while I'm on my mission is to list five things I am grateful for during that day and then any physical activity that I did. Oh, journal! How blessed I feel to be here at the Missionary Training Center! I AM A SISTER MISSIONARY!! There are no ifs ands or buts about it! And by the wonderful Spirit I feel, I know that being here is RIGHT.
I got a feel for the language; I got settled into my dorm room; and I served others. This was a very important factor in making this first day right -- I helped others with their luggage and I built my muscles in my arms but also in my friendship skills.
I'm very excited to have Sister Jennifer Smyth as my companion. She is from Idaho and simply splendid. We are going to get along great -- I KNOW it! Oh how I feel my Heavenly Father's love through the love of others!
I know things aren't all hunky dorey all the time as a missionary, but I know it's worth it. May my testimony of Christ and Joseph Smith grow continually particularly with the wonderful nourishment of the MTC!
2) Spirit saying "This is right!"
3) Gelters' service, love, & support
4) Meagan and parents' gift of funds!
5) Sis. Smyth being so awesome!
100 sit ups, 20 push-ups
Well, the way I'm starting my entries while I'm on my mission is to list five things I am grateful for during that day and then any physical activity that I did. Oh, journal! How blessed I feel to be here at the Missionary Training Center! I AM A SISTER MISSIONARY!! There are no ifs ands or buts about it! And by the wonderful Spirit I feel, I know that being here is RIGHT.
I got a feel for the language; I got settled into my dorm room; and I served others. This was a very important factor in making this first day right -- I helped others with their luggage and I built my muscles in my arms but also in my friendship skills.
I'm very excited to have Sister Jennifer Smyth as my companion. She is from Idaho and simply splendid. We are going to get along great -- I KNOW it! Oh how I feel my Heavenly Father's love through the love of others!
I know things aren't all hunky dorey all the time as a missionary, but I know it's worth it. May my testimony of Christ and Joseph Smith grow continually particularly with the wonderful nourishment of the MTC!
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